The PF Women Team at our Annual Team Retreat ~ 2018 Today on Seth Godin's blog, he said: It's tempting to decide to make a profit first, then invest in training, people, facilities, promotion, customer service and most of all, doing important work. In general, though, it goes the other way. Yes, it does. If you are waiting to make a profit before you do these things, in my experience you're not going to make a profit. So many organizations, ministries and churches are struggling with financial issues. I know your pain. As anyone who follows our story knows, our ministry was in a ton of debt four years ago when I came on as director. Since that time, we've gotten out of debt and turned a profit every year. God has done amazing things through out team, for which we give Him the glory! I find that what Seth is saying here is absolutely true, with one disclaimer. For Christian leaders, spiritual disciplines must always be first. Before we started i...
My husband asked me yesterday, "how much MORE can you possibly SLEEP?" I told him that he doesn't really understand the difficulty of the upside down schedule, first of all. Turning it right side up when your days have been nights for a week is not easy. Second, even with that I hardly sleep while I'm actually over there. I am so keyed up about everything I can hardly let down. The more I go to Africa the more excited I get, not the other way around. It never becomes "old hat" to me. Sometimes I get up in the middle of the night there just to stare out the window at the rain and listen to the birds. I take in every last moment that I can. Yes, I try to shut down and rest while there but it's proven very difficult. I am more amazed by the place each time I go.
Third, the emotional and spiritual energy expended for me is really indescribable, especially preaching six services back to back will full altar services that last a long time. Some of the services there go on FOREVER. Becca was amazed. Not that I didn't warn her. I've been in a six hour service there! No kidding. Then there is saying goodbye to those I love -- I don't ever think there's anything good about a goodbye. And finally, the 30 hour trip home. "Didn't you sleep on the plane?" my husband says. Well, yes, I did do some of that, but consider that you are sleeping upright in a very uncomfortable small seat and being interrupted constantly by announcements over an intercom or someone needing to go potty, or other stuff. It's not exactly good sleep. Add to that -- I don't like to fly and sort of pray my way through! All of this blended together is rather overwhelming. But I'd go through it again and again to be there. With all of this said, I'm not complaining, just EXPLAINING.
So since coming home... I craved a bath and had to clean the bathroom first to do that. It took me about an hour to scrub it down and then I bathed and have since stayed in bed since Wednesday night. Haven't answered email or the phone, and have slept the majority of the time. I ate whatever Larry happened to feed me since Wed night which up til' this morning consisted of a McDonalds meal one time, and the other time a bowl of chicken soup. I finally decided I needed something more this morning so I got up and fixed myself some banana blueberry pancakes which are my favorite, as well as hot tea. I made some plain pancakes for Savanna because that's the way she likes them.
I'm feeling more rested now, and was hoping my spirits would lift too. Part of the reason I haven't returned any calls or texts up til now is that despite what God did I have just felt low. Fried. Like I have nothing to offer. I know that sounds strange because there's so much to say, but I guess after the huge adreneline rush I sort of bottomed out. I've given myself permission to ease back into life although some may not understand it, sometimes you just have to do what's best for you. I'm taking the advice of Marsha Woolley, our district WM director and a dear friend...she was raised in Africa on the missionfield and well understands all that I'm talking about here. On my facebook she left this comment a few days ago: "We're so happy you are back. Just take time to rest not just your body but your heart. It's so hard to come back. I remember one time when I came back I was coming up the escalator in Atlanta and a pastor that was with me said 'we're back to the real world,' and I said 'no, we're back to fantasy land, where we've been is the real world!'"
Church is tomorrow as well as beach day and water baptism following that, so I will have to get into a little higher gear here in the next 24 hours. I'm moving a little faster today...and hope to have my happy face on tomorrow at Celebration.
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Ruth
But when I came home and drove my car from church to home, I just sat behind the wheel and wept. And only those who had gone on the trip had fully understood what I was feeling.
So, with all that said, you will be in my prayers! Deborah