I'm not going to give too much detail other than to say please pray for me, my blog readers. It was a challenging week while I was gone and this has made coming home and getting back on track difficult. I'm the one that keeps our world on track. Things were difficult without me. No one really has any clue how much I do. They might think they do, but really no one truly knows to what extent. Sometimes the pressure on me is overwhelming. There's nothing I could have done to have lined anything up better before I left. We are talking about circumstances out of one's control. Unfortunately I have come back not really to the same world, but one that is more challenging than when I left. Fitting the things God has done in me last week into my world I walked back into seems rather impossible. I have to admit to you I have given up on wearing eye makeup this week. I try my best to be as honest as much as I can. So I'm just telling you, I am at a really low point right now. I did go to service yesterday morning, and also our church dinner last night. I was very tired after 33 hours of travel, but I really wanted to be there. I realize some of the way I may be reacting to the changes I've come home to could just be tiredness and fatigue. However, last night I went to bed early and got 9 and 1/2 hours sleep, which is a huge amount for me. I don't feel any better. In case you are wondering if I'm clinically depressed, maybe so but probably not. Reason being - there's are real tangible reasons for me to feel this way - actual circumstances, not just a vague, "I don't know what's wrong with me and I just can't snap out of it." I felt like I was coming back from Africa from outerspace and re-entering the earth's atmosphere, the trip was so "other worldly." The issue is, I have reentered the atmosphere and it's a difficult one right now. Please pray for me because this Thursday is Thanksgiving and we have officially entered the holiday season ...
The PF Women Team at our Annual Team Retreat ~ 2018 Today on Seth Godin's blog, he said: It's tempting to decide to make a profit first, then invest in training, people, facilities, promotion, customer service and most of all, doing important work. In general, though, it goes the other way. Yes, it does. If you are waiting to make a profit before you do these things, in my experience you're not going to make a profit. So many organizations, ministries and churches are struggling with financial issues. I know your pain. As anyone who follows our story knows, our ministry was in a ton of debt four years ago when I came on as director. Since that time, we've gotten out of debt and turned a profit every year. God has done amazing things through out team, for which we give Him the glory! I find that what Seth is saying here is absolutely true, with one disclaimer. For Christian leaders, spiritual disciplines must always be first. Before we started i...
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Love you bunches and I'm so glad God answered all of our prayers. He took you safely, used you mightily and brought you back home.
Next time we'll pray that everything be in order when you return home. No nutiness on the home front to bring you down from your spiritual high.
Know that I love you...
Glad to have you home safe with your loved ones. I know there's nothing I can do personally to make things better for you - ALTHOUGH I WISH IT WERE!
I will definately keep you in my prayers as well as the Fam. The best I can do besides prayer is send hugs & kisses your way, so here goes. . . . .
smooches & big hugs (smile)
Love you lots, Lady Sutton
I love you, am praying for you and am here for you.
Sue F
My heart aches for you. I'm really sorry and wish I could help in some way besides praying but I know that prayer is a powerful thing. I've often struggle with moodiness and it's always hard to explain. I find that staying in Gord's Word, searching for the positives and constantly rebuking the devil and telling him he's a liar were great weapons that helped. No matter what the devil says, know that you are loved and there's a whole bunch of people praying for you.
Hugs & Love...Kerry
Blessings!
I guess it took about a month to settle back into a semblance of "normal" - not crying often, not feeling guilty for being able to see a doctor when I wanted to, not feeling like I'd abandoned my family and they hadn't coped well in my absence...
:::hugs:::